How Do I Forgive Him?

by Sara
(Michigan)

It's been at least three years since I left my ex-husband. I was abused physically, emotionally, and sexually for three years. We had a son together and when the time came for me to leave, I was forced to leave my son behind. I tried every way in the world to take him with me, even went to his Daycare to pick him up. The daycare actually stalled me until my ex could get there and long story short he got custody because I had no money and no place to live. I do thank God that now I am in a loving marriage and have another son and am very involved with our church. I just want to move on from this hurt and be able to forgive him so I can become closer to God. It's a real struggle for me to let go and forgive. I haven't actually dealt with all the pain I was caused and still am caused because I have been reduced to only being able to talk to my son over the phone.
It hurts too much to deal with what's been done but I know that I can't move forward until I deal with this. I need help and support from women who understand what I've gone through and continue to go through each and every day! I don't know what else to say except can someone please help me?