NEED HELP!!!

by Amanda
(Louisiana)

I am a 32 year old female. I was raped 12 years ago. I was in a domestic abuse and spousal rape for six years after that. And 4 years ago I was raped again in a mental institute. I don't feel like I can trust any one. but I know i need to talk and deal with the pain. I just started having nightmares again and feel the need to release by cutting. I was able to stop a few years ago. I am now in an amazing relationship with my boyfriend he is wonderful he knows I was abused and he knows about the rapes but he knows no details I don't feel he needs to know the pain I've been through. I guess this is my effort at reaching out.